As the book progresses, Klebold takes the reader back in time to depict Dylan as a loving boy who was extremely helpful and loving. However, with the power of hindsight, Klebold could see what might have been warning signs of the smallest order. This is a very painful book to read. This is not to toss all the blame onto Harris, but Klebold posits throughout that her son's less aggressive nature surfaced in journal entries, recorded messages, and in footage of the actual school shooting. But She persisted in thinking everything was OK, even though Dylan had been suspended from school and arrested for stealing, with Harris, electronic equipment from a parked van. A Mother’s Reckoning is a sincere gesture in sharing and I thought Sue Klebold shared some very important information, messages and insight to living in the aftermath of tragedy. That seems to be the premise of this book and makes it the ideal choice for the buddy with whom I chose to read this. Filled with hard-won wisdom and compassion, A Mother’s Reckoning is a powerful and haunting book that sheds light on one of the most pressing issues of our time. How could you not know that Dylan was. However we never get any insight as to why he tipped o. Summary (from Goodreads): On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold walked into Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado. I'll never, ever again "assume" anything close to this kind of thinking or judge. What was done can’t be undone. What kind of parent are you? (This is an important message, but it certainly needs to be tempered with the realization that the vast majority of teenagers are not at risk of doing what Dylan did, or even of suicide.) Having interviewed and spoken with countless professionals over the years, she shares in the second half of the book the studies and professional opinions that support a greater emphasis on understanding, removing the stigma around, and treating brain health issues. Let me start off by saying whenever one of these horrific events happens, I always feel so badly for the family because I know they are going to be blamed and that is not fair at all. She did so many things right by writing this book. However 80% of this book is her telling me what a normal family they were and what I normal childhood he had (and I believe it) and the other 20% that he had a brain disease and was suicidal (and I believe that too). It was heartbreaking. Yet we persist in believing (it would be hopeless not to) that, once they arrive, we will in some deep way. Sue Klebold's narrative is extremely difficult to relate to and empathize with. The stranger you fear may be your own son or daughter.”, “We teach our kids the importance of good dental care, proper nutrition, and financial responsibility. I read it with great interest and curiosity. Sue Klebold's life as she knew it ended abruptly on that day 17 years ago when she not only lost her son, but was left behind to piece together a puzzle that could never be completed. She dove into motherhood and did her best to mother with intent and purpose. It’s hard to criticise a book that so earnestly and willingly embraces self-exposure. There’s no question that Klebold’s story is horrifying—a story of mass murder and its aftermath that blessed few of us will ever have to tell. And with fresh wounds from the Newtown and Charleston shootings, never has the need for understanding been more urgent. Klebold’s son became a murderer before he became a victim of suicide. It is definitely worth the read and changed my perspective on the parents of. Crown. Goodreads helps you keep track of books you want to read. For nearly an hour, the pair, wearing black trench coats and carrying assault weapons, roved through their school, killing 12 students and one teacher and wounding 24 others before they killed themselves. By Rachel Shteir Globe Correspondent, February 17, ... After finishing “A Mother’s Reckoning,’’ I longed to know why. First, I want to deeply discredit reviews that state this book is nothing but a mother making excuses for her son. Susan Dominus’s review of “A Mother’s Reckoning” by Sue Klebold, the mother of one of the two boys who killed 12 classmates and a teacher, and then killed themselves, at … Final Note: Author profits from this book will be donated to research and charitable foundations focusing on mental health issues. It would be easy to admire Sue Klebold for her courage in writing a Mother’s Reckoning. Writing 16 years after the. How does a mother or a father miss the signs of impending doom, the stockpiled weapons? When we hear about the actions of murderers we always think to ourselves: "How could they've done that? I was fascinated, horrified, sickened, and heartbroken in turns while I read, but mostly heartbroken – for Sue as a mother, for the memories of her lost child, and for the pain she and her family have had to live with for the last seventeen years. It would be easy to admire Sue Klebold for her courage in writing a Mother’s Reckoning. Published by wendopolis. That seems to be the premise of this book and makes it the ideal choice for the buddy with whom I chose to read this. Addressing teen suicide and the inner turmoil that Dylan faced, Sue is blunt in her message to parents: do not ignore anything that seems out of place. I am not sure how you review something like this - a mother's recounting of a cherished son's life, the heinous act he commits and the aftermath of that act on her life and family. I can't find that info here. It's a horrible story and one that we sadly see repeated year after year; and it's hard not to feel defeated, like things will never change and there's nothing we can do about it. This is devastating. … Dylan and Sue Klebold, erhaps the most unnerving thing about having a child is that you don’t know in advance who he or she or “they” will turn out to be. I believe this was partially because of the book I was reading. A Mother’s Reckoning – Review by Lee. They murdered thirteen people – twelve students and a teacher – and injured twenty-four. Over the years, after a long time researching the Columbine case, I'd learned to view Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris as human beings. I read this book because a friend of mine suggested it. I'm not sure how she survived. It was nearly impossible not to, considering I spent my time reading their journals, private online conversations, websites, jokes, accounts from friends and loved ones and teachers who liked and praised them as well as watching homemade videos they made for fun. This book was extremely difficult to read at times, and I can only imagine how hard it was for Klebold to write. by Sue Klebold. I think she does a tremendous job of expressing her experience of mourning, while paying due respect to the families of Dylan’s victims. In reality, it’s hard for me to figure out what lessons to draw from Klebold’s book. I only finished it recently. Sigh, where to start. April 20, 1999 – Columbine High School – Littleton, Colorado. A great deal of this memoir is written from the perspective of what ac. Book: A Mother's Reckoning: Living In the Aftermath of Tragedy Author: Sue Klebold On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold killed twelve students and a teacher at Columbine High School. She also spends much of the book suggesting that all parents should be extremely vigilant about any signs of depression in their children and teenagers because Dylan had done a very good job of concealing his true state of mind right up to the date of the shootings. I was stunned when I saw the news that day but I can't recall ever considering how the mothers of the shooters might be feeling. Ever since I started the research, I knew I couldn't view them as monsters because it was far too simpl. Or, they were so disengaged in their lives they were just plain oblivious. The first section is devoted largely to her early memories of Dylan, a “loving” and “affectionate” boy with a halo of blond hair: “He was easy to raise, a pleasure to be with, a child who had always made us proud.” But she also remembers that he didn’t like to be teased or to fail, and “his humiliation sometimes turned to anger”. Review A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy. But then I picked up A Mother’s Reckoning. • To order A Mother’s Reckoning for £12.99 (RRP £16.99) go to bookshop.theguardian.com or call 0330 333 6846. But I am left with the uncomfortable feeling that she is looking for some form of public salvation – through the lengthy reflections on her good parenting and on the efforts she has made since Columbine to be a good person despite the circumstances. It includes information on the recorded basement tape video made by Eric and Dylan as well as documented statements from their diaries and Sue's own journal. Looks like I am in the minority on this one. I had a bad night a week ago. There is no way we can expect her to have anticipated Columbine, especially as there was little precedent for it – she had the bad luck to be mother to a depressed teen whose anger intersected with Harris’s incipient psychopathy in a spectacularly toxic manner. A teacher flagged a story he had written – from the point of view of a gunman – as disturbingly violent. Later, when she heard that her son was involved, she found herself praying he would die. Filled with hard-won wisdom and compassion, A Mother’s Reckoning is a powerful and haunting book that sheds light on one of the most pressing issues of our time. This book deserves a more eloquent review than I can muster this late in the evening. Pain and suffering seems to envelop people, but there are many more feelings and emotions that layer themselves within the larger narrative of grief. Sue Klebold is Dylan’s mother. Both come down to a kind of moral luck and accident of biology. Review: A Mother’s Reckoning by Sue Klebold CONTENT WARNING: DISCUSSIONS REGARDING SCHOOL SHOOTINGS, VIOLENCE, MENTAL HEALTH I was a bit nervous going into this book and I’m not sure exactly what I expected, but I certainly didn’t expect a well-written book that made me feel more empathy for the family, especially the mother, of one of the Columbine shooters than I ever … I'm giving it a 3.5 just in terms of the writing, readability and narrative flow but I am in no position to review the veracity of what happened here. shooting, she … "While every other mother in Littleton was praying that their child was safe, I had to pray that mine would die before he hurt anyone else.". A Mother’s Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of the Columbine Tragedy is a hard but important look at the life of Dylan Klebold, and the legacy he left for parents Sue and Tom, and brother Byron. 4 stars. They are also a victim. Let me start off by saying whenever one of these horrific events happens, I always feel so badly for the family because I know they are going to be blamed and that is not fair at all. To read it is to be unforgettably drawn into the devastation she endured: on the day of the attacks, Tom told her he was going to try to get into the school, and she tells him he could be killed. I’m fairly sure that this is the longest book review that I have written, I have tried to cut it down but can’t, it seems that I have a lot to say about A Mother’s Reckoning by Sue Klebold and feel the need to say it! The narrative arc takes us from denial to anger to acceptance and some kind of comprehension. The early chapters offer a cogent narrative of the events of the day and the period that followed, a time in which Sue and her husband, Tom, were crippled with doubt and guilt for what Dylan had done. Follow. I find these books very hard to review. Yet Dylan carried out horrific murders, depressed or not. But having listened for the past few weeks to the audio version of Klebold’s book with rapt attention and a knotted stomach, I think it is probably more accurate to thank Klebold for openly sharing part of her journey in dealing with her son Dylan’s participation in the Columbine shootings. In the dazed aftermath, stories abounded: the killers were goths, were bullied, were part of a terrifying “trenchcoat mafia”. And she is condemned to a life in which some people will always try to reassure themselves that their child would never do what Dylan did by blaming his parents in their parenting and for failing to see what was coming – no matter what Klebold has to say. It took me three very long days to get through this book and I honestly wish that I did not read it. Filled with hard-won wisdom and compassion, A Mother’s Reckoning is a powerful and haunting book that sheds light on one of the most pressing issues of our time. On a work trip, she meets a computer teacher who pointedly says: “When you’re a good parent, you just sort of know what your kids are up to.” Eventually, the couple are sued, go bankrupt and divorce. First, I want to deeply discredit reviews that state this book is nothing but a mother making excuses for her son. But amongst the more trivial things in this book—like Klebold's excellent writing for someone who doesn't do this professionally—I think what stands out most is Klebold's optimism and faith that we. Book Review ‘A Mother’s Reckoning’ doesn’t dig deep enough. This was a difficult book to read. Out of the worst tragedies there surely sprouts some specks light and hope. Worse if the child’s death is a suicide. The book begins on the day of the Columbine High School Massacre, and ends on the same day; except by the end Sue mentions all the things that she missed and would have done differently had she known about mental health issues. ", Excellent follow-up story to COLUMBINE, but a very sad and terribly heartbreaking read. On 20th April, 1999 Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold went to school with the intention to kill. In April 1999, Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris attacked Columbine High School in one of the largest school massacres in the US – setting a pattern for many that would follow. Refresh and try again. While it would be crass to choose any reading group that might 'like' this book, its insightful nature might prove useful to those who remember the Columbine shooting as they wrestle to better understand the chaos of that day. For now I will say that this broke my heart with it's bravery, honesty and compassion. How could you not know that Dylan was purchasing weapons? Out of the worst tragedies there surely sprouts some specks light and hope. Anxiety, sensory overload, shaking, scratching, crying, dark thoughts and an overwhelming need to hurt myself and control the pain. The troubling, bestselling memoir is a search for understanding and a confessional, as well as an account of catastrophe and grief, Last modified on Thu 22 Feb 2018 15.15 GMT. She has spent the last 15 years excavating every detail of her family life, and trying to understand the crucial intersection between mental health problems and violence. I give my thoughts on the book by Sue Klebold (mother of Dylan Klebold) 'A Mothers Reckoning. Eventually, the two perpetrators turned their guns against themselves and committed suicide. She spends much of the book assuring her audience – and herself – that she was the best parent she could be. This book is Klebold’s attempt to tell her story: the story of their family life, their parenting, and the complete and utter lack of signs leading up to. Sadder still when the child is young. 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